(((HUGS))) Kim. My heart aches for what you have gone thru. You are right, you never heal. My heart goes out to you on being so brave to put your thoughts and feelings in a journal.

((Hugs)), Kim. I know that you will never heal from this tremendous loss. Your journaling is so moving. Wishing you comfort.

Oh Kim! My heart has ached for you since I read the post that he has died. I’m fighting tears for you now. Your journaling is very moving. I am so very sorry this happened to you and your family. {{{HUGS}}} and prayers for all of you!

Kim, I have no words to say to you. I totally get your first paragraph. I will never heal from losing my DH. He was also the love of my life, my partner, my best friend. My heart goes out to you for what happened to your DH, and to you. My DH lost his "widow maker" completely, back in 1986. He was only 34 years old. He somehow survived the heart attack but had severe damage to his heart muscle, yet somehow survived and lived with no LAD and the heart muscle damage for many years. More years than his doctors imagined he would. He was amazing. But when he developed a bone marrow disorder and needed constant blood transfusions, it eventually turned into leukemia, and that was too much on his heart. Watching him go downhill and eventually losing him was devastating. My heart goes out to you for losing the love of your life. How you documented the whole thing is amazing, the beautiful paper and the heartfelt words. So many ((hugs)) to you. It will be 5 years in December for me. You never heal from it, you just learn to live with it.

Thank you so much for doing my challenge and for pouring your heart into it.